Colleen Ballinger has addressed her notorious ukulele apology video, posted in June, during which she denied allegations of grooming by way of music.
In a brand new video merely titled “fall vlog,” Ballinger returned to YouTube for the primary time in 4 months and acknowledged that the apology was “actually embarrassing.”
“Clearly, the final video that I posted on right here is de facto embarrassing, to say the least. I used to be being accused of some fairly terrible issues and I simply was mad,” Ballinger stated within the video. “I ought to have dealt with that state of affairs with maturity and empathy, however as an alternative I simply let my ego take over and I’m actually disenchanted in myself.”
Allegations in opposition to Ballinger first emerged in 2020, however a NBC Information report printed in June shed new mild on the state of affairs as extra members of Ballinger’s on-line fandom got here ahead. Based on the report, YouTuber Adam McIntyre made a video in 2020 alleging that Ballinger had “shaped an inappropriate private friendship with him whereas he was between the ages of 13 and 16, which included her sending him lingerie as a joke. He additionally alleged that Ballinger gave him entry to her social media, helped her generate content material concepts, and that they exchanged textual content messages for years.”
Ballinger additional responded to the allegations in her new video, saying: “Over the past 15 years of my profession, there have been moments the place I used to be immature and inappropriate with a few of my comedy. And there have been occasions when I didn’t put sufficient thought into my fan interactions. And due to that conduct, individuals received harm, and I’m so sorry. I by no means needed to harm anyone, but it surely’s clear that I did and I really feel so horrible about that.”
Ballinger ended the video by saying that she plans to proceed vlogging on YouTube any more, and has since posted one other video to her channel titled “What I’ve been as much as.”
“I’m not an ideal particular person and there are many issues in my previous that I want I might return and redo and repair and alter. I don’t have management over any of that and I don’t have management over the issues that folks say about me, I solely have management over my actions transferring ahead. So I’m going to do every little thing I can to guarantee that I create a optimistic, form, inclusive, protected area on-line with my content material,” Ballinger stated. “And if you wish to be a part of my journey on-line, I’d like to have you ever, and if not I utterly perceive. I don’t anticipate anybody to welcome me again with open arms, I don’t anticipate to alter anybody’s thoughts with this video. I simply needed to come back on right here and say that I’m sorry and I needed to attempt to present folks that it’s potential for somebody to develop and be taught and be higher after making errors a few years in the past.”